should i be…

:: planning a youth ministry programme or spending more time with young people?
:: investing more of my time in a small group of people rather than less time with the multitudes?
:: cutting corners on my wedding day financially to bless the lives of others?
:: talking less and listening more?
:: eating with my family more?
:: think about a wedding less and a marriage more?
:: pausing more and rushing less?

doing a lot of soul searching at the minute on a number of ways. mainly in thinking through what is it Jesus calls us to do and requires of us? trying to cut through the cliches and tradition to discover what He was actually all about. the passages i’m reading are unsettling me but i’ve still more searching to do so for now, questions abound while answers are hard to come by.